I can’t stop loving youuuu
I was going through some of my old posts and that life seems so far away. I don’t even speak to billy anymore.
Yeah, I found texts from another woman in his phone. He claimed it was from an old coworker but I was drunk and didn’t have the rational mindset of a sober person. He follows me into his room and asks me why I went through his phone. He follows me outside when I go there to collect my drunk fucking self. He asks again.
I push my hand into his face and yell about loyalty. We spend two hours yelling, fighting, insulting each other. I hit him. He left bruises
We were both drunk.
I still don’t know what to believe, mostly that he was cheating.
I have such shit luck but it was for the best.
I needed a way out, something to save myself and push me on to a better path
I thought things were getting better. Just to have it destroyed hurts, with cheating no less…
A cute army guy made eye contact and checked out my ass. I reciprocated interest but my mom was around. Awk
I don’t know
I miss him but it was unhealthy and I need to get on with life
When you are 23, you will meet your second addict. He will love it more than the strength it takes to be a good partner. You will strike him repeatedly while drunk. He will not call the cops.
You will realize the sinking feeling you get when you heard the words, “I am an alcoholic,” was a way out.
You will never care about an addict after this incident.
It was dirty and disgusting hitting another person but all the rage left me when I did it.
He’s getting softer but its taking time
As long as I have you back idc
"I always thought you had to be sad and miss him, but when you break it off the rules change."
"I’m confident I’m the only person I need to look out for. you need an equalizer, not someone who expects you to carry the weight. "
" prior to breaking it off, a man my father’s age said, ‘you’re too young for those kinds of problems, that kind of doubt. There are so many men, but you only have so much time.’"
It seems unfair.. I took care of you and never strayed
You liked me like you hadn’t in a long time
Brought up commitment even when you admitted women always try to trap you
I don’t get it
I miss you so much
So heartbreaking so much
Despite all my doubt and confusion, I only wish that it were real. I will always miss you and the little time we had together
No matter how many times I ask I Ching and Tarot
No matter how much I pray
Those days are gone and so are you
And so I must go too
We always had to do what you wanted to do, never what I wanted
All we ever did is have sex. You wouldn’t pay attention to me when we werent fucking
I had to pay for everything
You only said good things but never could show me
You’re living with your parents and we have no time together
I had to change and accept
You never tried to ask about me or get to know me
I cried and all you did was flinch and your eyes started to get glossy
Words mean nothing
Neither does affection