- I hate sleeping and that’s probably why I do so very little of it.
- high dose Motrin takes the edge off the pain but it’s still there
- I told him my symptoms but blocked his number shortly thereafter. I don’t care for his response or insistence that he didn’t give it to me because I know he did.
- i feel so discouraged with the mental health situation and that it may take a while to even find a doctor and make time to see them when a general physician could have seen me, accessed my situation, and prescribed me something to try. I don’t like therapy or talking about things plus it’s a risk of my insurance not covering tests and specialists visits. Done with that fucking doctor. She wasn’t even an MD so fuck her.
I’m not looking for a prescription pad, just a doctor who’s like, “okay, well if you don’t like therapy and intend on coming back to me to check to make sure you’re progressing well and not abusing medication, then we can create a plan for your mental health that may involve avoiding alcohol, sleep medication, and anti-depressants. It seems none of those things are what you want to try. Perhaps we can try something to help you focus and motivated, calming your mind so that you can make decisions that are good for you both in the now and long term.”
It’s how I envision someone talking to me. Not, “well you sound crazy. Go see a therapist.” Which is essentially what she billed my insurance to tell me. Fuck off and die